packed away; including a detailed description of which tiles were cracked or damaged
before they were packed, which had been mislaid by the original tilers (there were a
hundred and sixteen such tiles; most turned ninety or a hundred and eighty degrees by an
artisan too tired, too bewildered or perhaps too drunk to realize his error); all so that
when the tiles were unpacked at the house in Coldheart Canyon there would be no
difficulty reordering them into the original design.
It was a long process; a total of eleven weeks were to pass before the crated
tiles were finally transported from the Fortress.
All the work had drawn much attention of course; from the brothers themselves,
who knew what was going on because Father Sandru had told them, and from the villagers,
who had only the vaguest of ideas of what all this was about. There were rumors flying
around that the removal was being undertaken because the tiles had put the souls of the
Fathers in spiritual jeopardy, but precise details of this jeopardy changed from account
to account.
The vast sum of money that was now in the possession of the Order did very little
to transform the lives of the priests, apart from inspiring some of the most embittered
exchanges in the history of the brotherhood. Several of the priests were of the opinion
that the tiles should not have been sold (not because of their merit, but because it was
not wise to loose such unholy images on the secular world). To this, Father Sandru-who
was more often, and more publicly, drunk by the day-offered only a sneering dismissal.
What does it matter?, he said to the complainers: they are only tiles, for God's
sake.
There were a good number of shaken heads by the way of response, and a very
eloquent riposte from one of the older Fathers, who said that God had put the tiles into
their protection, and it was cynical and careless of him to let them go. What damage
might they not do, out there in the world, he said; what hurt to innocent souls?
Sandru was unmoved by all this. There were no innocent souls in Hollywood, he had
learned; nor was there any sin or excess painted in the tiles that the people of that
city were not intimately familiar with. He spoke with an authority which he didn't in
truth possess, but it sufficiently impressed the brothers-or at least a greater number of
them-so that the nay-sayers were finally silenced.
There was much debate about what should happen to the money. One faction, led by
the older men, believed it had been acquired by dubious means, and the only uncorrupted
way to dispose of it was to distribute it amongst the poor. Surprisingly, very few voices
supported this solution; some part of the money might be given to the needy in the
village, the priests agreed, but there were other causes that should be attended to.
There was some lobbying for a complete removal of the Order to some other place than the
Fortress; a more comfortable place, where they could find their way to God without the
Devil's shadow falling across their path. It was Sandru who was the most eloquent
advocate of their staying in the Fortress. His tongue well lubricated with wine, he
explained that he felt no sense of regret that he'd sold the tiles; it was a
once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, and he was glad he'd taken it. Now, he said, they should
use the money to rejuvenate the place. Get the hospital up and running, as had always
been the plan; see what they could do about refertilizing the land, so that the vineyard
would prosper as they had in the old days.
"Our path is perfectly dear!" he said to the brothers. "Whether our faith in the
Lord is secure or not, we can heal here, and we can grow the grape, and pass our lives
with purpose."
He smiled as he spoke. That word-purpose-had not been on his lips for many years,
and it gave him pleasure to speak it. But even as he spoke the smile started to die away,
and the color shrank from his ruddy face.
"I beg you to excuse me," he said, putting his hand to his belly, "I am sickened
by too much brandy."
With that he pulled out of his robes the bottle from which he had been drinking
since early morning, and set it clumsily down on the table in front of him. Then he
turned and stumbled out to get a breath of fresh air. Nobody went after him; he had no
friends left in the Fortress. His old allies were too embarrassed by his excesses to
publicly share his opinions; fearful that his behavior might reflect poorly on them, and
keep them from advancement. So he was alone as he wandered giddily through the ruins of
the dead vines. It was evening, and now that the summer was past, the air was beginning
to get chilly. But the sky overhead was a perfect blue, and there was a new moon, its
pallid crescent just clearing the mountains.
Sandru tried to let the sight of the sky and moon calm him; have them placate the
pain of his heart, give life back to his numbed fingers. But the trick was beyond them.
He realized suddenly that this was not a spasm brought on by too much brandy. He was
dying.
The Brothers had medicines for weakness of the heart, he knew; it would not be
the end of him if he got back to them quickly enough. He turned on his heel, attempting
to voice a shout of alarm. But his panicked chest would provide no breath for him to cry
for help. His legs began to fail him, and down he went, face first, into the dirt. He
tasted the soil in his mouth, bitter and unappetizing. He spat it out; and with the last
of his strength he pushed himself up out of the filth and let gravity roll him over. He
could not move, but it didn't matter. The darkening sky overhead was spectacle enough. He
lay there for six or seven shortening gasps, while a star, lonely in its solitude,
brightened at his zenith. Then he let life go.
The Brothers did not find him until the middle of the night, by which time a
frost had settled on the old vineyard, the first frost of that autumn. It glittered on
the bulk of the dead Father; on his bulbous nose and in the knots of his beard. It had
even inscribed its filigrees on his unblinking eyes.
FOUR
There was no hospital established at the Fortress; then or ever. Nor was there
any attempt to replant the vineyard, or make the grounds around the Fortress in any way
flourish. With Father Sandru's passing (at the relatively tender age of sixty-two), what
little enthusiasm there had been for change withered. The younger men decided to leave
the Fortress; three of them left the Order entirely and became members of the secular
community. Of the three, one-a young man by the name of Jan Valek took his own life less
than a year later, leaving a long suicide note, a kind of epistle to his sometime
brothers, in which he wrote of how he'd had a dream after the death of Father Sandru, in
which "I met the Father in the vineyards, which were all burning. It was a terrible place
to be. Black smoke was filling the sky, blotting out the sun. He said to me that this was
Hell, this world, and there was only one way to escape it, and that was to die. His face
was bright, even in the darkness. He said he wished he'd died earlier, instead of going
on suffering in the world."
"I asked him if they allowed him to drink brandy wherever he was now. He said he
had no need of brandy; his existence was happy; there was no need to conceal the pain
with drinking.
"Then I told him I still had a life to live in the world, whereas he had been an
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