1. "Great art thou, O Lord, and greatly to be praised; great
is thy power, and infinite is thy wisdom."[6] And man desires to
praise thee, for he is a part of thy creation; he bears his
mortality about with him and carries the evidence of his sin and
the proof that thou dost resist the proud. Still he desires to
praise thee, this man who is only a small part of thy creation.
Thou hast prompted him, that he should delight to praise thee, for
thou hast made us for thyself and restless is our heart until it
comes to rest in thee. Grant me, O Lord, to know and understand
whether first to invoke thee or to praise thee; whether first to
know thee or call upon thee. But who can invoke thee, knowing
thee not? For he who knows thee not may invoke thee as another
than thou art. It may be that we should invoke thee in order that
we may come to know thee. But "how shall they call on him in whom
they have not believed? Or how shall they believe without a
preacher?"[7] Now, "they shall praise the Lord who seek him,"[8]
for "those who seek shall find him,"[9] and, finding him, shall
praise him. I will seek thee, O Lord, and call upon thee. I call
upon thee, O Lord, in my faith which thou hast given me, which
thou hast inspired in me through the humanity of thy Son, and
through the ministry of thy preacher.[10]
CHAPTER II
2. And how shall I call upon my God -- my God and my Lord?
For when I call on him I ask him to come into me. And what place
is there in me into which my God can come? How could God, the God
who made both heaven and earth, come into me? Is there anything
in me, O Lord my God, that can contain thee? Do even the heaven
and the earth, which thou hast made, and in which thou didst make
me, contain thee? Is it possible that, since without thee nothing
would be which does exist, thou didst make it so that whatever
exists has some capacity to receive thee? Why, then, do I ask
thee to come into me, since I also am and could not be if thou
wert not in me? For I am not, after all, in hell -- and yet thou
art there too, for "if I go down into hell, thou art there."[11]
Therefore I would not exist -- I would simply not be at all --
unless I exist in thee, from whom and by whom and in whom all
things are. Even so, Lord; even so. Where do I call thee to,
when I am already in thee? Or from whence wouldst thou come into
me? Where, beyond heaven and earth, could I go that there my God
might come to me -- he who hath said, "I fill heaven and
earth"?[12]
CHAPTER III
3. Since, then, thou dost fill the heaven and earth, do they
contain thee? Or, dost thou fill and overflow them, because they
cannot contain thee? And where dost thou pour out what remains of
thee after heaven and earth are full? Or, indeed, is there no
need that thou, who dost contain all things, shouldst be contained
by any, since those things which thou dost fill thou fillest by
containing them? For the vessels which thou dost fill do not
confine thee, since even if they were broken, thou wouldst not be
poured out. And, when thou art poured out on us, thou art not
thereby brought down; rather, we are uplifted. Thou art not
scattered; rather, thou dost gather us together. But when thou
dost fill all things, dost thou fill them with thy whole being?
Or, since not even all things together could contain thee
altogether, does any one thing contain a single part, and do all
things contain that same part at the same time? Do singulars
contain thee singly? Do greater things contain more of thee, and
smaller things less? Or, is it not rather that thou art wholly
present everywhere, yet in such a way that nothing contains thee
wholly?
CHAPTER IV
4. What, therefore, is my God? What, I ask, but the Lord
God? "For who is Lord but the Lord himself, or who is God besides
our God?"[13] Most high, most excellent, most potent, most
omnipotent; most merciful and most just; most secret and most
truly present; most beautiful and most strong; stable, yet not
supported; unchangeable, yet changing all things; never new, never
old; making all things new, yet bringing old age upon the proud,
and they know it not; always working, ever at rest; gathering, yet
needing nothing; sustaining, pervading, and protecting; creating,
nourishing, and developing; seeking, and yet possessing all
things. Thou dost love, but without passion; art jealous, yet
free from care; dost repent without remorse; art angry, yet
remainest serene. Thou changest thy ways, leaving thy plans
unchanged; thou recoverest what thou hast never really lost. Thou
art never in need but still thou dost rejoice at thy gains; art
never greedy, yet demandest dividends. Men pay more than is
required so that thou dost become a debtor; yet who can possess
anything at all which is not already thine? Thou owest men
nothing, yet payest out to them as if in debt to thy creature, and
when thou dost cancel debts thou losest nothing thereby. Yet, O
my God, my life, my holy Joy, what is this that I have said? What
can any man say when he speaks of thee? But woe to them that keep
silence -- since even those who say most are dumb.
CHAPTER V
5. Who shall bring me to rest in thee? Who will send thee
into my heart so to overwhelm it that my sins shall be blotted out
and I may embrace thee, my only good? What art thou to me? Have
mercy that I may speak. What am I to thee that thou shouldst
command me to love thee, and if I do it not, art angry and
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